Tuesday, 14 January 2014

Oncology ( hysterectomy #4)

It's quiet and cold at home, and I have plenty to be getting on with, but it feels like I'm waiting for something.  I'm up to date with the doctors, and a new round of pills, and she has confirmed that she can't find a reason for my constant nagging back pain.  I must have just strained it, doing all this laying about.  

She read out my biopsy result: 'atypical hyperplasia'.  The GP said she didn't know what that meant, and that the consultant would explain in an appointment that would be through soon, so I left it at that.

The dog and I went for a walk across the farmland in brilliant winter sunshine, and the air was as cold as a steel knife.  We made it a long walk, and as I put my key in the door and picked up the letter laying on the mat, I thought of hot tea.  Boots off, kettle on, letter open.  Come and discuss your biopsy results with the gynaecological oncology team, it said.  It had already told me pretty much how the next few months might go.   I guess I ought to Google 'atypical hyperplasia', but I can already guess that it is a cancerous or pre-cancerous condition if the oncology team are looking after me.  Standing in my arctic kitchen waiting for the kettle to boil, I let the unwritten yet certain knowledge sink in.  I was going t lose my womb to a hysterectomy.

After the initial shock came relief.  My body relaxed, knowing that finally, someone had heard and understood her cries for help.

find out what happened next (you can probably guess...but thanks for reading!) Next part of my story
I'll keep you posted!

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